Elusive - difficult to find or achieve
When I wrote my last post, I thought the word that I was looking for was "illusive".
I was attending mass last Saturday when all of a sudden, I thought of the word, elusive!
I was so antsy, I wanted to go to my car where I kept my phone and immediately correct the word.
But I checked the meaning of illusive and thought that it was more apt than elusive.
I am trying to equate my happiness with food.
It seems illusory now.... The reason why I would cook a certain food or eat at a certain restaurant is because in my way of thinking.... Food will make me happy.
Food will bring back the "sparkol" in my eyes.
It is decpetive in a way....
Then I would feel bad afterwards because what I thought would make me happy....
Did not make me happy.
So, yes.... It still is... The Illusive Sparkol.
If it were illusive, though, then it was never really there to begin with. But you talk of bringing it back, and so it used to exist. If you're having trouble identifying what gives you the "sparkol," then it only remains elusive. Just trying to help.
ReplyDeleteHi! Thank you for your comment. It really is quite confusing.
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