Elusive - difficult to find or achieve
When I wrote my last post, I thought the word that I was looking for was "illusive".
I was attending mass last Saturday when all of a sudden, I thought of the word, elusive!
I was so antsy, I wanted to go to my car where I kept my phone and immediately correct the word.
But I checked the meaning of illusive and thought that it was more apt than elusive.
I am trying to equate my happiness with food.
It seems illusory now.... The reason why I would cook a certain food or eat at a certain restaurant is because in my way of thinking.... Food will make me happy.
Food will bring back the "sparkol" in my eyes.
It is decpetive in a way....
Then I would feel bad afterwards because what I thought would make me happy....
Did not make me happy.
So, yes.... It still is... The Illusive Sparkol.